Joshua's birthday was 2 weeks ago. I hurt on his day. We took him blue and white flowers and I spent the day in a hole. I made Oreo Truffles instead of a cake and we sung happy birthday. And I cried... A lot.... I miss him ... A lot. I miss him more that I ever thought you could miss another person. I just wish I could hold his hand for a little while. Or run my fingers through his hair.
We are 4 hours from the start of the new year. I'm excited about what God has planned for my family. I don't like the thought on New Years resolution but I do love having goals.
My sister, mom and I have been making diapers and supplied our hospital along with a few others with Teen Tear diapers. And my sister has made a contact with the funeral home that we use. Apparently a lot of moms use them. They contacted her about getting diapers for the babies that come in without anything. We found out what hospital the babies come from that don't have anything. We are working on getting diapers in the hospital and at the funeral home. We want all babies to have these diapers!
So one goal for the year is to have this done.
Second goal is a support group. This is something I've been thinking about and thinking about starting a nonprofit organization for. But with some input I think it may fit inside a nonprofit that already exists.
Third a job. One that will allow me to be involved in the nonprofits that are doing amazing work and allow me to be with God and my family more than the job I have now. I've been praying and I believe he's opening doors for me. I just have to be patient and faithful.