Monday, May 6, 2013

To Joshua on your would be birthday


I wonder sometimes if I would have called you Josh. I think I would have. Maybe not at first but I'm sure after a couple months I would have. Today is the day you were suppose to be born, but you were born extremely early. I miss you everyday. And even though it hurts I am making you a name. I want people to know that even though your life was so very short, that you were here and you meant something. I'm donating diapers, and blankets for other angel babies. I hope you know that I love you and that I will forever think of you everyday as my forever baby. I hope you know how sorry I am that my body failed you and how happy I was to be carrying you. I never for a second wasn't happy to be having you. An even though the pain had been bad and this has been the hardest time in my life I am still glad for the few months I spent carrying you. I'm glad for the few hours I held you in my arms and in glad that I tried to give you life.

Love you forever and ever


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