I went to church today. I of course didn't go the day I delivered the girls. I went to the hospital while most everyone else was at church. I didn't go last week. Jason and I sat at home and watched tv. I can't even tell you what we watched because I just sat there. I went today, because my little children asked me to go. I'm not sure I was ready, but I held it together for the most part. I did have some cramps around the end of the service and my back started hurting, but I think it was a good day at church. We then came home to cook deer burgers.
I took a much needed nap today. No sleeping pills needed. I didn't sleeping last night though and it looks like tonight is going to be much of the same.
I'm thinking of going to a support group meeting tomorrow night. I think about going and I cry so I may not exactly get out of the car and go in. But I'm going to try. I think.