I really miss my baby today. My head is not foggy and I was able to think of other things besides Joshua. I was able to control my cleaning for most of the day, but reality has completely set in and I miss him. I just wish I could see him every now and then or kiss his sweet face. I know it's not going to happen. But man I miss him so much. I don't know how I'm going to live with this much pain of missing him for the rest of my life. It just hurts. I just miss my baby.